Salam and hi everyone,
And just like that its been a year since I update my blog. All I can say is that life happen and I choose to live my life and less social media. Most of it is my body is catching up on sleep and healing from all the stress and anxiety. Things are still not as good but its getting better. For 2024, I went to GUnagzhou twice, went to Shenzen and reconnect with an old friend, went to Seoul with my Uni friend to met Lia, went to Disneyland Japan and Shanghai, went to Harry Potter Studio and TeamLab in Tokyo, manage to celebrate my birthday in London, attend work workshop in Germany as well as met Thuy in Stuttgart and Dani in Zurich. After that I went to KL to pick up keys to my owned Condo (congrats to me!). 2025 so far, the company did another layoff, Im still paying the debt while trying to live my life as best as I can, I finished reading Onyx Storm and One Dark Window by Rachel Gillig and we went to Scandinavian trip with my friends for the whole month.
There are many negative things happen but I trying to just focus on the positive. But, my mind is still playing tricks on me that makes me become restless and impatient. Things happen in life that it pushed my dreams and goals behind. I feels like Im behind in life. Thats definitely another topic for us to talk in another time. But, in summary thats how I feel and Im doing my best to overcome it. Logically I know everyone is in their own path. Ajal (death), jodoh (marriage) and rezeki (abundance) is in Allah's hand. But I cant help it. There's moment where I'm so mad to myself for being where I am today instead of where I want to be. Expectation, I know. Thats another topic we should discuss in another time.
I'm working on myself. Resetting my mindset and talking to myself that there's always a reason 'why' and I should be thankful for where I am today and work from there. Stop blaming myself and being grateful that I am healthy, sane and still manage to stand on my own. Im finding my inner peace and accepting things that happen.
So, on happier note, Happy Eid everyone! Hope you manage to go through last Ramadhan doing as much as you can. I manage to spend 3weeks at home for the Ramadhan and Eid with my family. This year was weird but it is what it is. Its so funny how you think that there should be less drama cause everyone is an adult but its the opposite. Anyway, whatever it is, we got our yearly Eid family photos, given out duit raya and can eat Gulai Bahtera. Plus, everyone is healthy. What else can you ask for.
Given said that, I miss my home, I cant wait to go home back in Hong Kong and live my routine life. Can't believe I said this, but I miss my gym and running routine. I want to go work at the office and this summer I want to re-decorate my apartment. I dont know where I'll be next year but I want to live to the fullest at my current apartment for the next 8 months. It will be the best 8 months of this year. I still have so many things to achieve this year. 2025 is the year of Snake, its my year and I want to make such a big deal out of it. Do a countdown to celebrate the month, the week, the weekend and finally celebrate my birthday on the day by doing nothing, literally haha
Well, have a good one everyone. Stay safe and healthy! Happy Eid 2025!
Love,
Elsa
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