Being an Introvert is Hard | coffeecupcloset

Salam and hi everyone,

Have you ever has one trait of you that you wish you can overcome it? For me is being such introvert person. I wish at one point or another I am outgoing person and can make friends with anyone. I love being on my own and I enjoy my own company. But at the same time I would love to made more friends and hang out with them on weekend just chatting and exchange views on life. Especially now more than ever, its important for me to do so when I left everything behind and move my life here. Being an introvert is hard. I found that meeting new people is really nerve wrecking and when there are few of them its become exhausting.

I do have few friends here but they have their own life and we are not meeting every weekend. And, most of my friends are my colleagues. I already see them 5 days a week at work, so, am I going to see them on weekend as well? I'm sure they have something else they want to do too. And, I found that, being a Muslim in HK, where you can meet a lot of people is kind of hard because the way they socialising here is through drinking and partying. At least for those singles out there. I once thought, things will change if I change my setting and environment. But, its still the same. Well, the problem is not the environment or others, its me.

I know I have to do something about that, like join a club or group weekend activities but just the thought of it give me anxiety feeling. In order to get what I never had I need to do things I never done. I try this method before but it doesnt work. Either I do it wrong or its not enough, this failure really depleted my confidence in dealing with another human being. And, with recent situation that happen, its remind me that just because I'm being nice and kind to others it does not mean others will do the same. The world doesnt stop spinning just because you stop breathing~

This is me ranting being me haha Being me is the only choice I have, everyone else taken. I dont know how can I change that and who will come knocking. But if its no one came then I guess I'll keep walking alone then. Shouldnt be a burden to other people...